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|Saturday, February 7th, 2009|
There I was outside with my nightvision goggles, a cigar in one hand, glass of 12-year-old scotch in the other, on a beautiful clear night. One of my childhood wishes fulfilled and no one to share it with.
Hoping that one day my buddy will quit ditching me for life with his wife, that he will stop being afraid of being alone and will call and do something with me again. Here's to hoping.
I know that the world is not perfect, and probably never will be... today is close though. Current Mood: disappointed
|Tuesday, June 17th, 2008|
After years, and years of waiting MGS4 is finally out. Pretty cool. I am so bored here at the house isn't not even funny. I guess I could go outside for awhile. I haven't the foggiest on what to do today.
Well I guess that I should head out there and get to it. Current Mood: groggy
|Sunday, January 13th, 2008|
|Science is rigged
I through my trying to get my mind off of work constantly have been doing some researching and have come to the conclusion that we are truely being lied to. Though the constant control of information. Science specifically.
Governmental control and scientific censorship. Via the many scientific articles I have read, I have come to the conclusion that we are not alone in this universe. Evolution needs to be put to rest due to it's flawed nature. There has to have been intervention in our history by someone/something.
Flowering plants are an example of how evolution doesn't work. So plants suddenly mutate sex organs and require pollen carriers to be able to reproduce? By the theory of natural selection, the difficulty that these plants have in reproduction would have mean't they most certainly should have died off if they were "just a mutation".
Ancient history is another factor in determing that there is MOST certainly extraterrestrial life in the universe. We are taught that these ancient people saw "gods" and communicated with them. We are then told to ignore this history because the ancients were a "primitive people" and probably didn't know what they were seeing, but somehow these are the same ancients that were technologically advanced enough to construct Pyramids, and move stones that sometimes are estimated to be 40 tons in weight. Doesn't seem very primitive to me.
What would the government get out of ignoring aliens? The fact that if the general public didn't laugh at everyone who believes in aliens, that if they knew the proof, the government would no longer be in power. The masses would no longer look to them for their answers. Society would likely stop looking to simple people like Hillary Clinton, and simple people like Obama for their leadership. They would be looking for another leader, and there is nothing more scary to a control system than 300 million people who no longer respect their government or it's leaders.
So sad that real discoveries get repressed, and the scientists that propose anything that is not standardly accepted by the establishment get fired and never get work again, but those be the breaks in our "free" society that we believe and exchange ideas in.
What has your government ever done to help you? Yet you choose to give them money and obey their rules.
Why? Current Mood: annoyed
|Sunday, September 30th, 2007|
Finally ended up getting the "letters" behind the name. Took that NCLEX test that they talk about and found out that it's allrite afterall. In school they made you think that it was going to be horrible, but that's not the case. You definately have to have a certain amount of respect for the test, and testers.
Got myself hooked up with some employment and working in the nurse game. I have since found out the difference between someone who is a ASN and BSN nurse. ASN = Crash course. BSN = Learned all the same stuff as ASN but has 2 more years clinical experience.
I found this out due to another new grad who started with me. She's done this longer than I have, and they probably won't have to train her as long, but oh well. I am going to learn as much as I can so that I can be the dude who is one of the best nurses on the floor, if not the best. My preceptor is cool, she's been doing this longer than I have been alive, and she can definately teach a brother a thing or two about a thing or 2. Current Mood: determined
|Wednesday, March 7th, 2007|
|F&%k carrots man.
Yup you heard me. I still have to try to do community service for my last semester of this nursing program. I guess I could try to do something at one of the local homeless shelters or something, but with the amount of papers that I have and the like I really keep putting it off.
I was also wondering to myself the other day... how many people have pet seals. I mean that would be so awesome. I would buy a swimming pool for the implicit purpose of owning a pet seal. His name would be Archie of course.
Well I should think of, and put some good energy into these projects of mine I guess. Current Mood: groggy
|Monday, October 9th, 2006|
|Long tests suck
Had a test today that was 96 multiple choice questions long. I think that I did okay, but still I am a little fried.
I like fried food. Current Mood: exhausted
|Sunday, September 24th, 2006|
|Guess who's back, back again.
Life is rollin' on and I don't have too much to say about it, other than it's been mucho too long since I last posted. Even one of my buddies has been making more drunken posts than I have and he only drinks maybe once a month. Time too catch up.
Yup not much going on other than the whole nursing school deally. Takes up a lot of the time. Not much else going on. Occastionlly a brother has a chance to play some ONIMUSHA 4: DAWN OF DARKNESS, but not a ton considering there is a lot going on with the nursing program including the... sigh... community service.
Yes hearye hearye. I will be the person at your child's school ladies and gentlemen, the person who checks their hearing with the beeping in the headphones. Yup that's right, and somehow doing this will help me to better be able to take care of people in the hospital or long term care facility. (You don't know how that works either, damn!? You mean it's all a hoax to get free slave labor into the community and that this is something that won't help me at all? I've been duped! DUPED! Curses! A plague on both your houses!) Current Mood: sick
|Friday, June 16th, 2006|
|Day off and no money
I hate when that happens. I have no money and have a day off to myself. This allows me time to watch movies that I have seen many times before or to read books that I have read many times before. Pretty much a boring day on the homefront. I'd like to be doing something else, but there's no one around and about the only other thing that I can do is go to the bookstore across the street to read their books for free which I am seriously considering at this point, even though I did that yesterday.
Just got done getting my CPR license renewed yesterday. Boy that was weird. I could have gone through my college to do it, but that would have cost me 125$ to renew my license. The red cross was doing it for 55$ so the wife and I decided to opt for that. It was pretty Ghetto though. I mean I was in a class that should have been entitled "CPR review for people 55 and older and Andy". I don't have anything against old people but I stuck out like a sore thumb and there was only 5 people other than myself in class, and as I implied they were literally all over the age of 55. As many people could have sympathy for my situation... you all recall taking 1st aid at one time, and you have to partner up with a live person for your partner. Yup so it was me and Gramma practicing the heimlich maneuver. Sigh. It was so weird. Half of the people in class were renewing their license for something to do, not because they had to. They just know CPR, just in case you know. In case "Bernie" from next door's angina acts up or something you know. So when I mentioned that my name was Andy and I was taking it for Nursing all the other people were weird about mentioning that they were just taking it for fun basically. Whatever. So after 4 1/2 hours of class my license is renewed and life goes on.
Well I might stop down at the chinese herbal pharmacy to pick up some more herbs and medicine, which costs very little and therefore I have money for it. Current Mood: bored
|Friday, June 9th, 2006|
|Workin' 9-6 it's no way to make a livin'
Life is pretty good to speak of currently. I am enjoying having almost no classes to take during the summer, and not having to write silly papers and the like. Been wondering if a person can't do everything ya know. We make sure that we only have one career that we go to college for, but can't we have another as well. Or maybe more than that? I mean I think that it's definately a waste to have eaten from the tree of wisdom if we don't do as much with it as we possibly can. But in the meanwhile I can play Jade Empire. I am thouroughly addicted. It's like crack, but instead it's a videogame. It's goodtimes. Current Mood: contemplative
|Friday, April 7th, 2006|
|Nursing -- Or how I learned to stop worrying and love (H)otel (I)ndia (V)ictor
Yeah that's right. I was dropping a reference to a famous movie that some of you might have seen out there, and some of you NEED to see. Here it is: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0057012/plotsummary
Boy nursing just threw 5 tests at me today, and I threw down the best I could in my delerterious, sleep-deprived state.
Now they want me to share and care about how I would feel if someone came in and had HIV or as I love to refer to the tiny little virus: (H)otel (I)ndia (V)ictor (Which is how one of my military buddies refered to it, considering the military alphabet that they use to spell things out, i.e. A = Alpha and so on). Boy to not have given thought to what would happen if you encountered the virus until this point seems kinda too little to late. I'm sorry, but that's like a firefighter not thinking that he might get caught in a fire until he's in the thick of things.
To me it's all about making peace with these problems related to your job. Police folks are going to have to deal with violence. Firefighters are going to have to deal with fire, and medical folks are going to have to learn to deal with diseases. Military folks have to deal with bureaucracy (Lenin's thoughts on bureaucracy: "I hate it heartily. Not the individual bureaucrat, he may be a capable rascal. But I hate the system. It paralyzes and corrupts from above and below."). Different people draw the line at different places on what they will or won't deal with. But dealing with and making peace with your fears seems to be a lost art in this society.
Especially with the advent of terrorists and questionable authorities in government.
But it seems that I have written a lot of info to simply get to the point of saying, I would treat whatever person came in with whatever disease the same that I would treat anyone else with any disease. Meh, that little virus is around these days, and so am I. Things just happened that way.
Well life goes on. I am going to enjoy this wonderful warm weather, but for the moment I am going to spend some time trying to beat resident evil 4 (yeah for those of you who keep up "Yes, I'm STILL trying to beat it." :) ) Current Mood: mellow
|Tuesday, March 14th, 2006|
Not much happening here on the homefront. What can I say. Got back from my mediocre spring break and things are back the way that they were before. Hellishly busy at the community college. To be honest of I would have known all the damn hoops that a brotha has to jump though to get a two year RN degree I would have seriously considered getting my bachelors. I mean come on! I don't have a day to myself, and if I do, I have to be asking myself... "Uh oh, what in the 'F' did I forget to do for nursing today that I have some time to myself?!" For instance, teaching is a big part of nursing, so the community college decides there is no better way to do it than to get out there and teach kids. That'd be fine if it were the only thing, but that's one on a list of 100 more things that I have to do. So today I spent half my day teaching a total of 75 3 to 5-yearolds about the benefits of exercise and staying active. Ok. I'm fine with that but now there is a 14 page paper that is going to be due on it. Hey man. I have got to work too. I am Sooooooo looking forward to the summer. I am getting major league burned out. All work and no play make me... CRazzzzzzzy [insert your own mentally ill maniacal laugh here]! Well hey what can I say I had some time to write this didn't I? I guess this gig ain't all bad. Well have to get up early in the morning and get my day prepped so I am ready to observe surgery in the OR at Fairview Ridges Hospital on the 16th. Current Mood: crazy
|Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006|
|Zen and Habanero peppers
One of the conclusions that I have come to with the help from one of the Zen masters I studied is that drama is the spice of life.
I intend to elaborate on that for the moment. But thinking of life as a dish that you are trying to cook is the best way of thinking about it. So you want to add some spice to it, that's understandable, but you need to make sure that you control the drama and the drama doesn't control you, just like you want to control the amount of spice that you add to the dish you are cooking.
Much like spice, a little bit helps to flavor things and make them more zingy, but too much and it's like ordering the "volcanicly spicy" option at Sawatdee's Thai resturant. When you control drama, it's kind of fun makes things zippy and more flavorful. When there is too much spice, you cry and your nose runs, and you can't taste the subtle flavors in your food. When the drama controls you, you cry, and often times your nose runs, and it's very hard to enjoy the little things in life because the feeling is overpowering.
Easier said than done though. It's a lot of internal work, changing beliefs on how things work, how people work, and what untimately is important as well as the eternal question: "What defines me? What does 'I' mean, and who am 'I' really?
Well I'm off to try to beat Resident Evil 4. Yeah. Videogames are definately one of my vices. I have to see if I can finally get the PS4000 parasite blaster after winning the game for the 3rd time. Current Mood: content
|Thursday, January 5th, 2006|
|Smile for me now.
It's unfortunate how much we're like rats in a box. We're no different than animals when it comes to things that we don't understand except on an instinctual level. Our experience of it is what matters, whether it's drinking, sex, eating whatever. A person who had a crappy experience with drinking Jim Bean, is going to gag at the smell without thinking about it. A person who had a bad experience with sex likely won't be able to enjoy it, unless they give meaning to the experience that they had. It's so weird that we are higher thinking beings, but at the same token when it comes down to the root of things, we are still animals on some level. Current Mood: indifferent
|Thursday, December 22nd, 2005|
Yeah that's right. I said "dang". My silly teacher put my grade into the wrong box in the computer and now I am currently not getting credit for the credits that I payed for and earned as well as it messing with my GPA.
I mean I can do these things, but I don't like having to do them. What is the "f" am I talking about you might ask? I'll tell you. Putting things that you can't control on the back burner. Yup. Christmas break is upon us and if I somehow think that there is going to be someone at the school available to help me with this problem before Jan. 9th, then I had better think a little harder. No one is there, so there is nothing to do but give it a firm "whatever.".
Got more nursing to do when I get back to school, going to have a different clinical instructor. That'll be helpful. My current instructor wasn't bad, but she wasn't top of her game either. She was a little green, not to say that I am any different, but when you have seen the amount of great teachers and nurses in your time that I have, you know a good/been nursing for a billion years kinda nurse when you see one. I hope I get one of those. Current Mood: frustrated
|Wednesday, December 21st, 2005|
|Snow and the problems it causes
Holy cow what a day.
I never in my whole life thought that I would have seen so many people in my whole life. I mean it's like the whole world is out at this time of year. People who don't normally get out of there houses, by the sheer power of Frosty and Santa are driven to stores to buy items for people they may, or may not know. And boy are these people cranky/suicidal. I nearly avoided getting run over 3 times today due to other people wanting to get back to the sanity of their happy homes. I got mad love for my people, but my people are mad angry and I don't really know what's going on. Maybe it's the fact that they wish that they had a fair chance at living a normal peaceful life, but they found out that there is a war going. Maybe they want a car that runs on hydrogen but figured out that people who own the oil companies have things rigged so that they are transitioning us onto ethanol, by making it a cheaper gasoline alternative (while still buying control in the ethanol business). Maybe they are losing faith in our government supposedly founded for the people by the people. But maybe they feel as though the people in government are persuing their own interests versus the interests of the greater good of humanity. Maybe they see all the death and destruction around us, and the errosion of values and traditions that America has held dear for hundreds of years. Little things like Christmas, somehow disappearing, seeming to die out. People trying to control things like freedom of speech by saying that people can't wish each other a "Merry Christmas" anymore.
Freedom = abscence of slave status
Freedom Fighter = Someone who takes part in violent resistance to an established political system
Tyranny = cruel and arbitrary use of authority
What does it take to be free? What does it take to stop tyranny? Current Mood: okay
|Friday, December 16th, 2005|
Never knew how much work contracting appendicitis could make for a brotha. Damn! I missed like 2 tests and had to make them both up on the last day of school, and that REALLY sucked bad.
Tried to get done with the flippin' community service that I was supposed to do, realized that there was a couple of forms that I never turned in that were due in September. Oh well. Not much that I can do now about that. Handed 'em in all the same. Good to be done. Dang.
That makes another year and 3/4 that I have to go to school before I can start working. Whatever. I'm ready for when it comes. Glad to be done with my nutrition class. Hopefully I got out of that dang class with a "B" because I got a BAD case of apathy right at the very end. The last test that I was making up nearly completely consisted of calculation questions related to how much protein a baby should get in relation to it's body weight. Yup. The other part was food safety. I know more about Salmonella than you would ever want to know.
Just gotta wait out the grades and let my scar heal a little bit more. It's a pretty bitchin' scar if I do say so myself. Current Mood: peaceful
|Friday, December 9th, 2005|
|My preliminary findings indicate... I'm a genius! Information that matters.
I was doing my random reseach on subjects that matter. One of these happens to be nutrition. I highly recommend and practice a diet based on Macrobiotics. The gist of this way of eating has to do with Mostly Whole Grains, Some Vegetables, Some Protein (fish), and a little bit of fruit. That's it.
But how this epifiany came about has to do with talk of hypoglycemia.
It has to do with Hangovers. We've all had them, and for those of you who haven't... GOOD FOR YOU! Then you probably won't need this information, but I know a few friends of mine who would.
No one, and I mean NO ONE takes these issues on with hangovers. I am here to present my findings and cure for hangovers based on science.
There are two main causes for hangovers:
1) Dehydration (Yeah, I know you've heard this one before)
2) Hypoglycemia (Yup, you probably haven't heard too much about this) Low blood-sugar bro's and sista's.
Ever wonder why you go to white castle after drinking up a storm, go for the pizza, drink pop ect...
That's why. It's documented that overindulgence in alcohol causes hypoglycemia. Your blood sugar is less than the amount of insulin going into your blood.
I will gather evidence to prove this point, but I was looking at the symptoms of hypoglycemia and figured out that in most cases they are highly similar IF NOT THE SAME as a hangover:
Hypoglycemia Progresses a variety of symptoms occur such as headaches, difficulty in concentration, disorientation, mental confusion, dizziness, faintness, double vision, coldness of the extremities, staggering or inability to walk, muscle twitching, depression, restlessness and mania (excessive excitement). Unless recognized and treated, severe hypoglycemia can lead to generalized convulsions followed by retrograde amnesia and unconsciousness. (Retrograde means moving backwards to a worse state.)
This would also indicate why people tend to wake up in the middle of the night sweating after a night of binge drinking. Same thing happens with folks who have hypoglycemia.
I made the connection after I recalled one of the better hangover cures that I heard of was drinking Orange Juice with sugar in it before going to bed. I didn't make the connection at that time, but whenever diabetics or folks who are hypogylcemic need a quick blood sugar fix, one of the things that they reach for is oj because it goes into your bloodstream so quick (has to do with fructose -- fruit sugar = easy to use right away).
So anyway I have made my case, and now I will make my case for the cure or prevention of hangovers:
Control your blood sugar if you are going to get yourself "faded". Try downing 20 oz of oj with a tablespoon or two of sugar in it. Follow that up with a gatorade, or powerade to replace your electrolytes and you should be good.
Granted this might not get rid of nausea and the like, it sounds like it should take care of 9/10ths of the symptoms associated with a hangover.
I only drop this info on everyone because I have mad love for y'all. Current Mood: geeky
|I swear that villians have it easier than this...
I'd love to be chillin' like a villian, but you know what... I can't. I have enough community service to do to make up for shoplifting several quarts of vodka. Dang. What's this gripe all about you might ask... well I'll tell ya.
It all has to do with the silly program that I am in for nursing. So... what goes on is that the American Nursing Association has a qualification to give the seal of approval to a school, that the school in question has a program that benefits the community. We, due to the school wanting ANA approval have to perform community service by going to visit senior citizens at their houses. I don't necessarily thing that there is anything wrong with this other than the time commitment involved with it. I would actually do this on my own if given the chance to, but "the man" apparently has to check up on me to make sure that I am doing my part. So I have to perform between 18-20 hours of community service during one of the most busy semesters of the year. Geez. I didn't steal anything, I may have let loose with some swears during a test or something but that's about it. I have about 8 or so hours in and SHOULD have 18 in by the 14th of december, but with my recent diagnosis of appendicitis and removal of said appendix (heheh) I am probably not going to be able to make it even if I wanted to. So now it's time for me to call up the community agency to see if I can meet with my lady before christmas and turn in my timesheet later or something.
This is ridiculous. 18-20 hours? I mean we are getting pimped out by our school for some free labor. I mean that's sad. I would be able to deal with 10 hours, but between work, school, and things like oh... I don't know... life, I am not entirely able to make it. My lady has Dr.'s appointments and PT appointments for most of the week, so if I happen to not be able to make it one week it's almost as if I am screwed. Not to mention that the agency told us that they want us to meet with our seniors 1 hr a week rather than longer than that. That in itself allows 0 leeway for mistakes. This idea sucks, and the fact that my school thought that ANA certification was worthwhile is a silly idea.
I haven't learned anything from this experience other than "the man" IS REALLY out to get me and make my life as hard as he can. Current Mood: pissed off
|Monday, December 5th, 2005|
|Wake yo punk ass up, Jeah. Growin' up in da hood.
Life ain't nothin' but bitches and money. Words to live by. Gotta love those early gangsta rappers. They really knew how to keep it real.
Finally got through my clinicals for Nursing. Didn't know how I would fare, but I did quite well. Helped out a brotha who was an undiagnosed diabetic. Helped him to learn how to inject his own insulin.
Got really wore out from it though. Went to work and was just tired. The following day I had only gotten about 7 hrs of sleep and didn't really talk a whole lot for that day. Haven't heard the end of it so far. "Are you back to your normal self? We were scared. You were scaring everyone." Holy cow. I am glad to see that my perogative to not talk is one of the heralding signs of the apocolypse.
Geez. I even got a call today from someone asking me about it. But so the world doesn't go into a tailspin, for the last gualdarntime, I'm fine! I was just worn out from running around for 12 hours straight and living off of 6 hours sleep and some cafe con leche. It's not ideal ah-iyte?
Anyway. Enough of that. Life is back to normal and I am back to doing what I do best which is killin' time. Which reminds me... I should go and play some video games. Current Mood: exhausted
|Thursday, November 17th, 2005|